Sunday, September 28, 2008

well well all this time in our life,when we see others fail or fall we just lend them our ears and tell them is ok.is not that hard is not the end.we wonder why others can fail or not know how to do things that are seemingly simple and idiot proof.
kind of confuse yeah?

All I want to say is we can never really truly know how another person feel the happiness or sadness.we can easily say i know it is terrible i have been through it.but what each and everyone of us been through is really different.even if we fail in the same things.we still feel different.we have to remmeber we have our own expectation of ourself and it is different for all as we all go through different things.

for the pass 19 years i can say i never felt like a failure ,really.getting straight A for all my math and sciences knowing that i cant score for my languages but i can still exceed what i expect myself to get.even in sports and fitness i know clearly where i am good and where i sux thus i don feel bad when i am like a noob.but ever since entering the army,this is the 2nd time i felt so depress.1st time was during bmt,looking forward to it nd wanting to chiong for ocs only to give up at the end.well giving up cause i know i couldnot make it but is the 1st time i felt so bad.

after i kind of recover after going to a slack vocation and a good army life that is ahead of me i got kinda of stress out and depress again.this time round because of a fucking driving license.1st time in my life where i really put in effort and still fail not once but 4 times and still counting.and worst is this is not even the real test but is just a assessment to see if i am ready for the real thing.dam it i m ay feel ok and alright during the day and everything but when i return to the almost empty bunnk i just feel very bad.looking to my right there is no one there.how bad can that be.it really sux the feeling and i really want to shout it out and talk to someone about this.maybe i am just not that great as what i thought i am and what others think of me my friends.wel all i hope now is i can get over this soon.hope i can get support from people soon.


just let me cry pls.

|KseR| 2:42 AM|